This is a poem I wrote about an ex in 2011. Just came across it and thought I would share since I have not written anything in some time.
Enjoy the heartbreak of young love. And the atrocious formatting of a girl who drank a little too much wine. Any formatting tips would be much appreciated. Its been a while since I wrote poetry. Bahaha! (By the way my fiance is sitting here rolling his eyes. He loves me)
Inevitable Goodbye (2011)
I sit here and think of you,
Think of me, think of us.
The thought of letting go of you, whom I love so much is torturous.
Just writing this, my hand is shaking, my head is whirling, my heart is aching.
I keep asking myself why this hurts so much more than anything my heart has been through before.
The line between what I know is best for me and what my heart wants is quickly becoming a blur.
My thoughts are like a NASCAR race; round and round in circles. Even if you win, you end up where you started in the first place.
I fear that not being with you will bring me back to where I was before.
You made me feel like I hadn’t and so long.
I had so much to be grateful for.
Will I get back to me? Me without you?
Yesterday I saw you for the first time since we decided to split. I wondered how two so different people could lay in each other’s arms, such a perfect fit.
We both know a future for us just cannot be yet we go ahead and kiss so passionately.
No matter how we melted into eachother in the dark of the night, no matter how much I want to stay here, holding you tight,
In the morning all will be as it should. You go your way, I’ll go mine. I will find the strength I never thought I could.
I hope you find everything your soul is searching for, and so much more. As for me, I am already out that door.