Poem. Young love, young heartbreak. 

This is a poem I wrote about an ex in 2011. Just came across it and thought I would share since I have not written anything in some time. 

Enjoy the heartbreak of young love. And the atrocious formatting of a girl who drank a little too much wine.  Any formatting tips would be much appreciated. Its been a while since I wrote poetry. Bahaha! (By the way my fiance is sitting here rolling his eyes. He loves me)

Inevitable Goodbye (2011)

I sit here and think of you,

Think of me, think of us.

The thought of letting go of you, whom I love so much is torturous.

Just writing this, my hand is shaking, my head is whirling, my heart is aching.

I keep asking myself why this hurts so much more than anything my heart has been through before.

 The line between what I know is best for me and what my heart wants is quickly becoming a blur.

My thoughts are like a NASCAR race; round and round in circles. Even if you win, you end up where you started in the first place.

I fear that not being with you will bring me back to where I was before. 

You made me feel like I hadn’t and so long.

 Happy. Alive. 

 I had so much to be grateful for.

Will I get back to me? Me without you?

Yesterday I saw you for the first time since we decided to split. I wondered how two so different people could lay in each other’s arms, such a perfect fit.

We both know a future for us just cannot be yet we go ahead and kiss so passionately.

 No matter how we melted into eachother in the dark of the night, no matter how much I want to stay here, holding you tight, 

In the morning all will be as it should. You go your way, I’ll go mine.  I will find the strength I never thought I could. 

I hope you find everything your soul is searching for, and so much more. As for me, I am already out that door. 

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Finding my Niche

I recently have come across a lot of great information about freelance writing. I have never been a 9 to 5 type of person. I have always had a passion for writing, but for years had given up on it. I thought professional writers, aside from the few that make is famous, were usually unsuccessful.  I have found that while it is not easy by any means, I  believe that with the growing demand for online writing, blogs, and forward thinkers, this is probably the best time to get into writing for a living. 

I would immensely appreciate any advice on this topic. I am hoping to start networking with some freelance writers to get some thoughts, constructive criticism,  etc. I plan on going back to school to brush up on my writing techniques and earn a degree. I also need to find a niche,  or a few.

My three favorite topics to write about are parenting, natural remedies/essential oils, and life/self-help. I plan to post a few articles on each over the next few weeks and hopefully I will get some feedback from fellow writers. Happy Monday!

Hmm..what to blog

This is from January but i am just now making it public, so here ya go: So I never ever could have pictured myself having a job where I am in charge of anything, or anyone. But after having my son and needing a job, I found a job as a dog walker. In less than a year I was asked to take on more responsibility and be a manager. Now my day consists of spending some time with my son in the morning, walking dogs from 10am-4pm, and then coming home and trying to get as much computer work done as possible. (And still hope to get dinner on the table.

The crazy thing is, I always thought I would be a vet or veterinary technician. But this job is everything I could ask for. And I love my bosses, I get to help animals, and I am learning so much about the business. Anyway, that is the gist of my life. Oh and I live with my parents. With makes the whole single working mom thing easier and more challenging at the same time.

I have always wanted to start a blog. Recently I considered a dog walking blog. Funny stories, etc. Then this week I was thinking I should blov all the ideas I come up with for the business, since I have WAYY more ideas than can actually be used. Now I am not quite sure what it will be. But I will blog. Might be about animals, might be about work, might be about my toddler. I will surprise you guys and post a piece of my overfilled mind each night. 🙂